Seriously bad day!

I can’t remember my dreams.Literally! I sleep less. So, maybe I don’t dream at all. Sometimes I wake up with the feeling that I dreamt something nice may be. But for the life of me,I can never remember my dreams.

I do get nightmares though. I sleep less. That could be why I get these nightmares. Give me a nightmare and voila-I remember! I ruin my mood ,I rewind it in my head umpteen times and I just have a bad day! Like today. I woke up distraught. Couldn’t jump out of bed when the alarm went, finally willed me to start my day after an hour or so. 

Even went for a short run. It did nothing to cheer me up . Endorphins be damned. The fact that one young fella , tried  to outrun me for 300 m or so everytime I crossed him on that short 625m loop of my neighbourhood park,panting and thrashing mother earth like he wanted to break into her-did nothing to make me happy!

I came back home grumpy. I hugged my son tight to make me feel better. He was in deep slumber .I woke up the poor fellow and got him annoyed. I lost my cool with the househelp for the same stupid things he does every day,the same things I laugh about on a better day.

I got to work late. My patients , wouldn’t understand ANYTHING I said at one go. The paediatric patients today seemed to be kicking more and creating a bigger ruckus on the dental chair. Now as I type this ,I know my patients are always like that. On a good day,I laugh when they speak neither Hindi ,nor English nor Assamese (the only languages I know)but some dialect from some part of the country and I threaten to explain treatment in my mother tongue as well.Today,I had no patience with them.I was curt and to the point.I did not have it in me to help them unwind.On a good day,I don’t mind if the kids literally bite off my fingers as I do their extractions and I have to explain the same thing a 100 times over .Today,I was the bad doctor auntyL

Today  I went to work with my wings broken,halo bent and horns showing loud and clear!

Back home ,I was supposed to do a short workout. Instead, I tried napping in vain,binged on a lot of junk and ended up more miserable.

I generally let an abstract something rule my day and mind today! I shamed me yet again! AAARGH!

I’m going to kill that creepy guy from my nightmare –in my mind! I hate him. And then I am going to skip dinner and crash early! Tomorrow,I'll be a good girl!

Talk of a bad day!