Feisty me?

                                                     

Am I brave enough to face and accept my flaws myself? Yes!

Am I mature enough to face it without as much as flinching if someone else points out the same flaws to me? Nope!

Time to grow up! Well into the fourth decade of my life and here I am unable to own up and slow down.

Slow down, capture my bliss, take out time for myself without guilt, see humour in things that don’t go my way and yet be myself. Time to stop being a drama queen and own up to my own feisty, tough self! Too many years of being too nice takes its toll sometimes.

Do I need to be nice all the time? Nope!
I need to connect with the real spirited me!

And maybe I should set myself some goals (albeit short term!)-some spunky goals!

Why follow the herd? Why want things just because someone else has them? Why envy anyone at all?

Why think any less of my own awesome self just because someone pointed out a flaw in me (and happened to be right! Hell!) ?

I just need to kick the flaw out of my system and get tougher!

Then, I need to practice dealing differently with people and situations that upset /anger me. All I have to do is express my displeasure, my opinion etc in an unemotional way keeping in mind my spunky goals! Ta-Da!

But, tell you what-I like being nice. I revel in doing little things for others that will bring a smile to their face. Be it a stranger. I thrive on goodness. I believe in goodness. I live on hope. I believe this world is a good place!

I do end up being a mess when I confront myself. I like to give the benefit of doubt to every other person. But I don’t forgive myself easily. Does that mean I don’t love myself enough? Why do I feel bad/hurt if I realise I was taken for a ride by X, Y or Z despite my being nice to them? Does anyone owe it to me to behave the way I behaved with them?

I just need to be more cautious. Why let anyone take me on these rides in the first place? I seriously do need to connect with the feisty me!!

Will I not be nice then?
I will be!
I can give my own spirited opinion about things and yet be nice.
I need to stop doing things that I don’t like doing just to please others. I will still be nice!

All I now need to do is operate in such a manner through my days, so that when I lay myself down to sleep at night, my conscience is clear and I have no regrets. That’s only up to me. That is the only way I can hit the jackpot.

So easy ;)))

I am an ordinary person. But I am a very special person too! Take me or leave me. I am going to be myself.
In any case, I can only deal with one person at a time. So I am just going to be myself and deal with myself!
Everyone else is apparently taken anyways;)