I spent the last two days with
my son, my cousin sister and her adorable little daughter in a resort near
Delhi. I wanted to be away from my regular place of inhabitance, away from
answering the door bell, away from thinking about the grocery or the next meal
to get ready , away from the instructions to be given to the hired helps.I would have preferred going away to the hills somewhere! But we had only so much time and resources just now! I
just wanted to go away. And am I glad I did!!!
I couldn’t have thought of
better company than my li’l sister. But what a surprise package my munchkin of
a niece was. She beat my sis hollow as far as company goes! I was meeting Inki
after a while and at 6 years of age, the kind of intelligent conversation she
can now hold and the way she speaks was
amazing. I just spent the entire time falling in love with her!!!
Sample this when I asked her to
speak extempore about heaven (my son made a video, so I am repeating this
verbatimJ)
When you go to heaven you can’t see the world. You can
live in a beautiful place full of angels. Even God lives there. And do you know
a fact about heaven? To get to heaven , you must not go by an aeroplane because
heaven is not around the world.It is on top of your head. Some people of your
family who have died already go to heaven sometimes. Like if they get so sick, or
they get hurt or get old. So thats the kind of thing that gets you to heaven.
Imagine if you were riding a thing, and fell into a heater, you would die and
go to heaven. All the people who go to heaven become angels.............so
thats what the facts I know about heaven!
Yeah,WUTEVA!!!! Falling in
love is easy!
I have always loved kids and
I remember when I was in middle school, I wanted to be a kindergarten teacher
when I grew up, just so I could be around little children. Being around them
kids brings out the best in me. I can actually forget everything else when I am
with the little angels.
That also brings me to why I didnot
end up becoming a KG teacher. No, I don’t regret being a dentist. I have learnt
to enjoy my work, thankfully! But, being a KG teacher wasn’t in the reckoning
when I was young when you could try being a doctor or an engineer instead; those
were rules that were not spelled out but understood. It just wasn’t an option I
was allowed to seriously consider. It seems like a different lifetime now, but I
don’t know where that wish just got quashed like so many others and life led me
to other roads that I was destined to take.
I hope that circumstances
will allow my son to follow his heart more in life! I hope he won’t feel pressurised
by anyone’s expectations, least of all mine!
While sis and me talked
through the night, long after the kids
had gone to sleep, I told her as I grow older, I feel I am done with most of my
life. Been there ,done that really. I don’t want to tire myself making plans
for my future anymore. Plans and dreams have a way of going haywire. I just
want to live one day at a time.
But , like Miss Munchkin kept
saying ‘you know, in my head I can see.....’ !!!
In my head, I can still see
things that are not likely to happen or are far far away from the reality of my
life. In my mind, I distance myself from my reality!!! In my mind, I can’t let
go of my dreams! The child in me lives on!
Life goes on! Fairy
tales, realities, nightmares all hand in hand!!!
I don’t know what else is in
store for me. But I no longer want to follow no Mr.Clicketty Cane while he
plays his silly game! I don’t want to follow the trend, do what is expected of
me, be a copy cat! It’s about time I breathe easy and stay content being
myself. Comfortable in my skin....is that what it’s called?
Have you heard the Clicketty
Cane song though? I heard it for the first time thanks to Miss Munchkin again!
I just heard firecrackers
outside! Its a new calendar year! Hallelujah!!!
1 comment:
Hey! You are getting better every time. I love it. Carry on.
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